If I Had a Boy

If I had a boy
I would infuse love
So he would know
So he would know

If I had a boy
I would weave hugs
In his being
For his being

If I had a boy
I would grow respect
In his soil
For his garden

If I had a boy
I would extract his tears
From his beautiful eyes
And inject them into mine
So he could see
What he has to see

If I had a boy
I would extract my tears
From my weary eyes
And inject them into his
So he couldn’t see
So he could see

If I had a boy
I would sing eternal lullabies for him
with his voice-
upon his insistence.
To carry me
To carry him


If I had a boy
I would wake him up
Every second of every minute of every day
Of his existence
To be a boy
The best he knows how

Somehow they pass, the seconds - folding yet another day and tucking it into night. lying inside it, in the dark, aching to undo it's neat folded corners, so it can come out, with the sun, and create chaos, anew.

It's raining again. I love it when it rains. Above all else, when I die, I want to thank God for rain.

There are a few souls I love. Some people I like. Tons of sub-humans I hate.

long time no blog. ironically cuz i've been happy. ironically it turns out apparently i wasnt as happy as i thought. So, welcome misery. Welcome new blogging post.
Am I going to boo-hoo sniffle sniffle my way through 3 dead boring paragraphs? No. (I swear I can hear ur sigh of relief:)
What I am gonna do- cuz its my blog and I can do what i want in it- is say what a fucking shame it is when someone cant keep it together and have enough self-restraint for the sake of something that was so obviously not an everyday occurrence.
I have nothing else to say right now.

Ain't NO label going on THIS forehead!

Evoking

Kamilla, come to the surface.