Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Is there a forever thing? Im beginning to think not- not bitterly so-on the contrary. What if we're all so hooked up on the "till death do us (freakin finally!) part" that we don't see that relationships are actually meant to have a beginning, middle and end?

I think we're too conditioned by "that which is universally known to be the norm"..not to mention scared shitless to admit it.

At the core of it all I think it's our phobia of endings. Why do we have a phobia of endings? Let's delve...could it all be stemming from our final "ultimate" ending? Dying? Just because we don't know what's next? Could be. Could it be because we're also "conditioned" to believe that after death its a 50/50 chance? ElDar aw Elnar? Could be. So its the fear of the unknown, basically.

If a relationship ends, we are stuck with just ourselves to vouch for our worthiness. We don't have a partner to verify our worth..that we're worth spending time with, committing to. So we derive our worth-not from within-but from without.

I have nothing more to say right now-too confused by what I just wrote.

1 comment:

Tamer G. said...

In a manner of speaking that is true. But, the way I see it is not fear of the Ultimate end as much as fear of our own loss. Being with someone for a certain amount of time, you end up defining yourself by that person. It happens so intimately within urself (depending on how much that person means to you) that to lose them, is losing yourself. It's losing your life. So in a sense it's a fear of the ultimate end, but a fear of living an end of yourself.